I have no idea where I got this thought from, but it is one of the most damaging thoughts I have ever had.
My entire life will be over by the age of 30.
Isn't that a weird idea?! Like seriously, where did it come from? I just recently told that to a friend of mine, and he was started laughing. Because it's weird. And it's damaging. And I have no idea how to deconstruct that thought and then reconstruct.
I don't think I'm young. I think I'm old. I think my time is almost up. I only have a few more years left and then my life is over.
I'm talking like, over. Like I just assume I'll be dead by 30. Some people may think it may be motivating, so I'll get on top of my crap and push to do a bunch of things before "the end of my life", but it's not. It's just..damaging. I don't allow myself to dream, because I don't have enough time. I don't allow myself to do a lot of things, because my time is almost up.
It's super weird. And it's not something I transfer to other people, necessarily. And obviously the average life span isn't 30, so it's not like there's any supporting evidence of this.
My entire life will be over by the age of 30.
Isn't that a weird idea?! Like seriously, where did it come from? I just recently told that to a friend of mine, and he was started laughing. Because it's weird. And it's damaging. And I have no idea how to deconstruct that thought and then reconstruct.
I don't think I'm young. I think I'm old. I think my time is almost up. I only have a few more years left and then my life is over.
I'm talking like, over. Like I just assume I'll be dead by 30. Some people may think it may be motivating, so I'll get on top of my crap and push to do a bunch of things before "the end of my life", but it's not. It's just..damaging. I don't allow myself to dream, because I don't have enough time. I don't allow myself to do a lot of things, because my time is almost up.
It's super weird. And it's not something I transfer to other people, necessarily. And obviously the average life span isn't 30, so it's not like there's any supporting evidence of this.
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