Friday, May 20, 2011


July 17, 2011 will be my twenty-first birthday. I got to spend my 20th birthday in South Africa and had originally planned to spend m 21st in India. Since that's not happening (check out "India", posted on May 20, 2011), I need to figure something else out.

There have been two ideas thrown around:

  • Vegas 
    • Cliche? Maybe. But I do love Vegas. And I love cliches just as much.
  • Disneyland
    • It's like the opposite of a "grown up" place, so it's just as much of a cliche. Also, I love Disney a whole heck of a lot. 
As I was brushing my teeth tonight (literally, like 7 minutes ago, hence the post at 2am on a work night), another idea came to me of what I want to do. 

On my 20th birthday, I decided that I wanted this decade to be one that I spent loving people and loving Jesus. I wanted to be excited and be surrounded with people that love and support me and I want other people to know that I love and support them. 

So, sticking with cliches. I want to do at least 21 things for other people on my birthday. What those things look like or would be, I have yet to come up with (hey, you can help with that!), but that's what I want to do. Now, I can do that in California or Nevada (or elsewhere), sooo the "where" is still up in the air I suppose. 

I fear being 21 for so many reasons. But this idea excites me. I hope you can be excited with me and perhaps even partake in helping me accomplish this. (Talk about a great birthday gift!)

I realize this wasn't very explanatory, but give me a break--I have been up for almost 20 hours and just got this idea and haven't been able to think it through! 


Announcement: I am not going to India this summer. 

I hate double negatives (they are so confusing) but I think I have to use them for this..

Not reasons why I'm not going to India (in no particular order and not exhaustive)

  • God didn't provide
  • God isn't big enough
  • I "jumped the gun"
  • I got scared
  • I'm not strong enough
  • I'm not good enough
  • I don't think sex trafficking is a big deal
  • I'm not a "good Christian"
  • I didn't listen to God
  • I don't care about the mission
  • I don't care about the world
  • God doesn't care
  • God doesn't want me to help India
I'm sure you want more of an explanation. For now, that's all I can really give you. But that above list are all things that aren't true. God is big enough and He does care. I am strong, especially with Him and I do love the world and particularly what the team that is going to India is doing. I think sex trafficking is a huge deal and something that is on my heart. 

No matter what. No matter where I am. No matter what I do or don't do. I love my God. And I will serve Him.